The choices for today were:
1. Spiritual acceptance means asking hard questions about our own behavior. How often have you acted with less compassion when you were out of sorts? List those to whom you own amends. Write what you would say. Take a chance to change your energy and possibly the relationships and write or tell that person.
2. How do you see yourself? Write down nouns as fast as you can that describe you. Dialogue with your wise person or a teacher and see how the wise one sees you. What’s the difference? Write down some affirmations to affirm your own true self.
3. For one week, write down the first thoughts you have in the morning, especially noting if you have anything unresolved with another or are holding any grudge. Each morning, write a prayer to help your spirit live with the concerns and not just your ego. Or just let the spirit write a response to your morning thoughts.
4. Write a thank you letter to yourself for all your contributions.
Hmm. The one that really is speaking to me the most is #3. So I guess I will be coming back to this entry for the next week. Isn’t that kind of like life – a work in progressJ? So this morning my first thought was how I just wanted to make it to the bathroom on time and then when I did I was angry because I realized I was having my first period in over a year. I thought I was through with this part of my life. Not really holding any grudges this morning and am at a space where the one thing in my life which is unresolved, well I know in time it is going to be resolved. So that is a good thing. I can live with knowing it is all going to be ok. I think it helped that I have clarification from CDR about what they will do for me as an individual and how I can work to get others involved systemically.
So let me take just a moment to pray before I get started with my day.
Infinite Presence, I come to you this morning thanking you for the peace in my heart and in my soul. I know that while I am not happy about some of the things that are in flux right now, I am at peace knowing that all is going according to your will. I know this is not happening to me, but for me. I give thanks for these times because I know it is part of my call and it is about you helping me to move to that next level spiritually. I thank you for all those in my life who have encircled me with love and support. Bless them for their love and kindness. And please bless those involved with Liftline that they might remember that every decision they make as an organization has a direct effect on hundreds and thousands of people in our community. May they remember they are not just a transportation organization, they are a human services organization, and that people with disabilities are people too. Help us to remember that we are all part of one body and that none of us is indispensable. And as I go through this day God, help me to be at peace and even be at peace with this unexpected arrival of yet another period. I know that even in this, there must be a blessing to come and so I give thanks. Amen.
Thursday, February 03, 2011
My morning thoughts this morning. Hmm – God let me make it to the bathroom on time, one more time. Thank you for waking me up this morning. I have much to do today, but I know that through you I will accomplish all that I have before me. I am excited about this new FB routine I have started of giving thanks each day to my FB friends and family who touch my life. I like the idea of sharing the love. Love begets love begets love. Other morning thoughts. Hmm, it is cold and I still hate periods. Hopefully it will be like it was the last time I had one and be gone tomorrow as well. Like the idea of being able to intentionally start the day with a written word of prayer. I like the idea of making sure that I start the day on a positive note.
Infinite Presence, I just want to thank you for waking me up this morning. One more time. I know that somewhere this did not happen for someone else. I am grateful for the covers that kept me warm last night. I am grateful for all those who love me and touch my heart. May I continue to remember to be counter cultural in my way of being. May I continue to replace anger with kindness, hate with love, and frustration with peace. May I continue to be a messenger of love in all that I say and do. Amen.
So my first thoughts this morning were like a traffic jam in my head. Creator help me make it to the bathroom, feed the cats, what do I have to do today, teaching, centering myself for meeting with a client, and writing. As I sat on the toilet, I took a moment to just silence my brain and focus on just sitting on the toilet. Funny thing is that this time has become so sacred. It is amazing how peaceful and focused I feel once I have my quiet time in the bathroom. Anyway, so then I went and fed the boys (Mr. Mittens and Wally), fixed myself a cup of coffee, came to my computer and began my writing for today. It is going to be a great and productive day. Yes, there are things that I need to think through, but the answers will come. So I am not going to stress over them. Instead, I am just going to release them to the Creator and know they are all going to be ok.
Living Spirit, Creator of us all – this morning, I just surrender everything to you. I have worked so hard this past year to transform my life through the renewing of my mind. Now I am embarking on the last frontier. I am embarking on the transformation of my body through the renewing of my mind. I am working on being intentional about everything I put in my mouth and thinking about why. If it is not to work towards the transformation of my body, then give me the courage to say no out of love for myself. Be with me as I write. Help me to write my way through all things, knowing that you are with me at all times. Even in the scariest of times recently, you were with me and sent carriers of love to bring me home. I know that if you were with me in those scariest and darkest of times, you are with me in the brightest and lightest of times as well. Continue to give me the courage to transform my life from the inside out. In the spirit of love, I ask these things of you. Amen.
As usual, I woke up this morning with the desire to make it to the bathroom on time and being grateful to wake up. Other first thoughts, hmm, looking forward to my spiritual journaling gathering and meeting Karen. Making a fruit smoothie for breakfast, working on a healthy eating plan for Zoë and me for the next week. Calling angel back as she called me and woke me up this morning, but did not leave a message. The only unresolved thing in my life is lift line, but I know that will resolve itself in time. It is just about me doing what I need to do and knowing the Creator will put everything else in place.
Living Spirit, Infinite Presence, Creator of all things in this universe, I give you thanks this morning for waking me up one more time. There is nothing greater then the gift of life. So I give you thanks for that and all things to follow. Be with me this and every day that everything I say and do be a message of love for all who receive itJ. In love, I offer up this request. Amen.
So what were my first thoughts this morning? Lol – Thank you for waking me up one more time please let me back it to the bathroom on time again. I wonder if anybody is coming to the gathering this morning. Hmm, what am I going to make. Need to let go of my anger at the dietician from strong and my anger at myself, which I didn’t even realize, was still in me. That was kind of surprising to feel that coming up last night.
Living Spirit, Creator, Infinite Presence, this morning I just want to give you thanks one more time for just waking me up. I know that everything that comes after this moment is a blessing and so for that I give you thanks. I am grateful that each day you help me to get out of bed and make it to the bathroom. Some people may not understand what a blessing that is, but it is. I know that you are going to send or not send according to your will, but the doors will always be open and I will always be available to you. Today, I also need to forgive myself for allowing the dietician at Highland to treat me disrespectfully. I should have said something at that moment. But at the time, I did the best I could. So today, I forgive myself for not being as strong then as I am now. I forgive myself for allowing my anger and frustration to send me back into this pit of dysfunctional and unhealthy eating. I know how to do what I need to do and eat how I should be eating and so I am going to work on transforming the way I eat. I need to work on being more aware of what I put in my mouth and why I am doing so. I need to be more mindful of each chew and really savor what I am eating, not just eat, chew and swallow. I forgive myself for holding on to this anger and not releasing it sooner. I am grateful for those who have brought it back up for me recently as it forces me to deal with it, release it, and move forward. So today Creator, because I love myself, I release it and let it go and forgive her, forgive myself and set us both free. Amen.
Not sure why but the Creator seems to be waking me up around 4 am and then again around 8 am. So I am going to go with the first thoughts of the latter, as that is when I really woke up this morning. My first thoughts were: thank you for waking me up again, thank you for making it easier for me to get to the bathroom :), thank you for all the blessings you are showering on me, especially with my new associate Jocelyn and her website http://www.mind-expanding.com/events/events/index.php While i have much to do today, I also am grateful that we have found a way to keep Zoe focused on her work, that I am in less pain, and that my cup just keeps feeling overflowing. Getting ready to call liftline one more time to try to get my forms so that I can begin the appeal process, if not, I will just go and pick it up :)
Infinite Presence, Creator of us all, I come to you today and give thanks for all that you are doing in my life. So many people touching my life, so many blessings, so many opportunities presenting themselves, just so many. Thank you. Continue to bless me, keep me and guide me. Be my words, my feet, my fingers, my hands. Thank you for my new mantra -- back away from the refrigerator -- i hear you every time i move towards it. all i can say this morning is thank you.
My first thoughts this morning: hmm – grateful to be waking up and to be able to go back to sleep again after I get Zoë on the roadJ. Other then that, not many first thoughts outside of getting Zoë on the road, feeding the cats and talking myself through what I needed to do before I laid back down to take a nap.
Living Spirit, Creator of us all, thank you for waking me up one more time because I know that somewhere, someone did not do that this morning. Thank you for Zoë and her unconditional love and support. Thank you for Mr. Mittens and Wally and their love. Thank you for allowing me to do anything and everything I need to do today. Thank you for just being the wise voice of wisdom in me and in my life. Amen.