A few weeks ago, a friend of mine posted the following on his Facebook page. “I've come into a higher CONSCIOUSNESS that to RELINQUISH and to SURRENDER are entirely two different things and I no longer want to GIVE UP.... I want to ACCEPT that I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING and ACCEPT that my control is LIMITED. Periodically, over the last few weeks I have been thinking about what he said and realized that he, like many people associate the word “surrender” with negative energy and meanings. He was, like so many other people I know, viewing it as a weakness or deficiency. He saw surrendering as giving up. Another friend of mine told me those who surrender are losers.
I have been thinking about what the word surrender for me. However, I have not been able to agree with what he said about surrender. See in my Dream, the word “surrender” is a positive. When I surrender, I am letting go of all that is keeping the love and wisdom of the Ultimate Consciousness out. Surrender is about me giving up my ideas of what others or I should or should not be doing. It all crystallized for me this afternoon as I was listening to Zoe talk to her Aunt Joan about the weather. She said there is nothing you can do to change the weather. You cannot fight the rain. For me, surrender is about me understanding that while I can put forth positive energy and pray that the snow stop and the weather warm up, I have surrendered the belief that I can hold back the spring or postpone the winter. It is going to be what it is meant to be.
At the same time, I am reminded that I am meant to or should I ever allow others to confuse me with a doormat. I choose not to allow others to walk all over me or to wipe their boots or shoes on me, even if it winter and there is snow on our wheelchair ramp. Surrendering does not mean I am weak. It means I am strong. I have a strong intent. I am clear on what I intend to create in my Dream and what I do not. Whether I say yes or no, I am strong and clear on my intention behind it. Surrendering does not mean I allow life or others to move over me, rather it means I walk through life. Surrendering means I no longer live in crisis, but live while going through crises.
Surrendering, as the Serenity Prayer says, means I change those things I can and I surrender the worry about those things I cannot. Surrender means I release my attachment to the outcome of a situation because the Ultimate Consciousness knows better then me what I should be doing and when and how and will work in and through me to bring me there. So I am unplugging from control and plugging into surrender. I am unplugging from doubt and plugging into faith. I am unplugging from all that is an energy zapper and plugging into those things that energize me. I am going to learn how to say I surrender and kick back and hum the lyrics to a song by Hillsong Live that says I surrender and remember that the more I surrender the more open I am open to experiencing you. What more can I say right now, but I surrender.