Let the journey continue

So my time working through Denise Linn’s book is over.  I have not been led to another place, so for now, I am just going to write her as I feel led to.  It will continue to be my private space to write about what is going on within my soul.  For now, all I know is this; my goal is that I strive each day to be filled with the love and light of the Infinite Presence and to share that with all that I meet on a daily basis.  So for now, be blessed and know you are were created in the image of the Creator who is love, that you are love, and are loved.  Be blessed.

My Earth Goals

During Earth week, I will be working on the following goals:

  • Becoming more connected to my body.
  • Attending to my health.
  • Detoxifying my body.
  • Understanding how to use my body’s physiology.
  • Connecting more fully with nature.
  • Creating a home for my soul.
  • Taking action for a positive future.

My Fire Goals

While I am working through the exercises for this week on fire, my goals will be:

  • to meditate on my inner light
  • to have fun
  • to step into a deeper level of trust and faith
  • to listen to my intuition and any inner voices urging me in new directions
  • to change some of my routines and habits
  • to take risks
  • to spend more time being creative
  • to examine my fears
  • to spend time with my spiritual partners
  • to move out of the shadows and into the light

My Water Goals

As this week is about emotional cleansing, these are my water goals for this week:

  • Continue to explore my emotional life
  • Continue to cleanse and declutter my home and office
  • Evaluate my relationships
  • Speak my truth in love
  • Connect with my inner child and take time to play
  • Embrace my childlike wonder.
  • Examine childhood issues
  • Explore my dreams
  • Follow my intuition
  • Allows the water in the shower to cleanse my body and my spirit
  • Check my plumbing and fix any leaks
  • Experience the spirit of water
  • Drink at least 64 ounces of water each day to flush toxins out of my system

My Daily Affirmations

April 1, 2011 -- My evaluation of myself is not who I am.



Air Goals

As this week is focused on clearing out mental debris and clutter and focusing on the air that I breathe in, my goals for this week are as follows:

  • To assess and evaluate my life
  • To clear out the clutter in my home
  • To make commitments that empower me
  • To do things I have been putting off or make a plan to do them
  • To organize my home and office space
  • To examine my beliefs
  • To breathe before speaking
  • To listen to inspirational music and become aware of the sounds in my home
  • To use my voice
  • To speak my truth



My Joy Journal

One of the things I will be doing over the next 28 days is keeping a joy journal. At least once a day I will be writing about the joyful, magical or great moments in the day. I will be journaling about experiences, writings, images, etc.
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Week 9, Day 7 – Rewarding Yourself, The Grand Adventure

The goal for today was to plan this great adventure to some place we want to go and go there. my great adventure is to go ride the ferries in New York state. I love ferries. We were to write about what permits us or doesn’t permit us to have what we want right now. We were to write down what the world of our wealth is right now. She also suggested we right about how the state of your birth, the feelings of your future, and eh wanderings of today affect and show who you are. Write what you know about rebirth in living. Write what your soulful self wants you to know. So if I were really going to have this grand adventure, I would do one of two things.
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Week 9, Day 6 – Rebirth

I have been thinking quite a bit about this whole notion of life, birth, and rebirth. Life for me is the entirely of my journey from birth to death. Birth is the moment I came into this world, until then and since then I was and am a work in process. For me, the time in between birth and death I am in a constant state of rebirth, whether it be conscious or unconscious. Every moment of every day there are countless cells in my being being regenerated, so physically at the end of the day I am not the same person I was when I woke up that morning and I am not the same person I was when I went to bed the night before. The same is true in every other aspect of my self, every movement that I make in my life consciously or unconsciously which takes me to that higher place of spiritual evolution is about my being reborn
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Week 9, Day 5 – Death

If this were the last day of my death, and I knew it, I think I would make a point of being with those people who are nearest and dearest to me and sharing stories of love and gifts that I would want them to have. I would want the opportunity to say goodbye to them in my own way and on my own terms. I would not want it to be somber, but a time of celebration. I would eat and drink whatever I wanted and throw all caution to the wind. I am reminded of this scene from the movie Chocolat and how the old woman celebrated her last birthday. That is what I would do if it were my last day. the practical side of me would make sure I sent an email and an excel file to my department chair so she knew how students were doing, I would let Zoe know what I wanted for my homegoing, and I would write a final reflection for Inspiritual telling everyone thank you for being part of my ride. And of course, I would leave Zoe a things to do list, which she will definitely procrastinate in doing
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Week 9, Day 4 – Aging

As I reflect on this period of my childhood, I remember having this sense, as a child, that I was not fully appreciated for who I was and what I was growing to become. I rarely felt fully seen or fully appreciated by the members of my family. While there are many experiences of joy during this period, it was also a time where I went from feeling as if I were an integral part of my family to feeling as if I were not as much a part of my family as my brothers. There was this clear sense of otherness that developed as I was growing up, of not fitting in. Yet at the same time, there was this fear of being abandoned, rejected, and set aside. There was also this fear that if I was abandoned then something bad would happen like when I was sexually abused by my dentist. What I did not realize was how that experience also moved me to a place of fighting for my dignity and the dignity of others. For example, in nursery school there was this boy who tried to kiss me. I said no. So he peed on me.
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Week 9, Day 2 – Present Time

Hmm, I am sitting here wondering if I have done anything kind today. I am sure I have, but that I am not even aware of it is interesting. When I asked my wife if I did anything kind for her today, as she is the only I have seen, she looked at me like I am crazy. She said, hmm, well obviously you have kept me on track with my school work and kept me out of panic city and that in and of itself is worth a lot of money. When I stopped and thought more about it, I began to see all the little things I do each day not just for my wife, but for our kitties, friends, clients, students, etc. I guess it is just such an inherent part of who I am that I am not always mindful of it anymore. So am I not mindful of it because it is not the present, this morning is the past, or am I just not being present. Zoë can get pretty stressed and off track with her studies, and so she asked me to put a daily schedule together for her as I am the just do it gurl.
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Week 8, Day 7 – Rewarding Yourself, The Choice

So today was to be field trip day and we were to go out and look at fences. We were supposed to notice how they were made and the purposes they serve. are they about holding something in or keeping something out. how do fences give us peace of mind. Finally, have there been different kinds of fences in our lives at different times. I would so love to do this, but when the weather is in the single digits and the snow cannot seem to stop falling, my ideal field trip is not to go strolling looking for and at fences. Not even sure that with all the snow we have right now, I could even see someone’s fence. In fact, in my neighborhood, there is not a single house with a fence.
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Week 8, Day 6 – Happiness

I have always found these magazine one challenging as I rarely, if ever, have any around the house, but this time I did. Well a few copies of the same magazine. Therefore, here were the article titles on the covers Your total health plan. Stress free simplicity, instant calm, and charge up your health. Then I found one from a different magazine that said pasta pasta pasta. So if I were to choose one article name and write an article about it, I would probably call it either your total happiness plan or happy happy happy! But for whatever reason I am not really feeling either of those titles. And I am not sure I am comfortable saying somebody seems happy. Some people in my life seem happy, but you get them behind closed doors and you find out they are not and are miserable. It’s as if they have this happy make up on
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Week 8, Day 5 – Simplicity

The short story I wanted to reflect on was already quite short, but spoke to my spirit this afternoon. It is called Stay in the Desert. The story goes like this, “Why do you live in the desert?” “Because I can’t be what I want to be. When I begin to be myself, people treat me with a reverence that’s false. When I am true to my faith, then they begin to doubt. They all believe they are holier than I, but they pretend they are sinners, afraid to insult my solitude. They try all the time to show that they consider me a saint, and in this way they become emissaries of the devil, tempting me with Pride.” “Your problem isn’t trying to be who you are, but accepting others the way they are. And acting in this way, it’s better to stay in the desert,” said the gentleman, walking off.
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Week 8, Day 4 – Gratitude

Writing a list of nouns for three minutes was harder then I thought. I found myself going room by room in compiling my list which included the following: Cat, Dog, Fish, Mother, Father, Sister, Brother,, Lover, Wife, Teacher, Writer, Spiritual Companion, Computer, Books, Shell, Bed, Desk, Kitchen, Food, Music, Glasses, Soda, Plants, Catnip, Treats, Schedule, Course, Paper, Printer, Keyboard, Mouse, Walker, Wheelchair, Bed, Cover, Pillow, Hamper, Toilet, Shower, Sink, Sofa, Futon, Loveseat, Desk, Bookcase, Lamps, Curtains, Table, Chairs, Refrigerator, Stove, Dishwasher, Cabinets, Towels, Toothbrush, Medication, Juice container, Pots, Pans, Blender, Toaster, Waffle iron, and Food processor. As I look at this list, I realize how much I have to be grateful for. First and foremost, I am grateful for my wife. I tell her that all the time, but I truly am grateful for her.
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Week 8, Day 3 – Humor

Well I didn’t have any magazines around the house, so I decided to spend a bit of time watching commercials and there are a few that make me laugh. Sadly, or ironically, many of them are from the same company – GEICO. I love the commercial with Maximus the Pig who is going wee wee wee wee wee all the way home. I love that commercial. I crack up laughing every time I watch it and sit there and go wee with Maximus. Watching it brings me back to being a little girl and that game my mom used to play with me about the five little pigs and the little one that went wee wee wee all the way home. Love it! On the other hand, I also love the drill sergeant psychiatrist commercial for Geico. I was talking about this commercial with a few of my friends who do counseling and they love it too. It is not that we are not compassionate and sensitive, but sometimes you are working with someone who is stuck in this swamp of despair and does not seem committed to their own recovery/evolution.
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